Monday, December 30, 2013

The year is coming to an end.

The year is coming to an end and I've realized that I have several pictures that I still need to post. With Christmas, my engagement, working, and spending time with family, I haven't had a lot of time to devote to pictures and blogging recently.

I did want to share these few photos because they were taken with my new camera lens, which I am super excited about. I've wanted that lens for years now. =) Hopefully this means that you'll be able to see more of my photography on here in the future.

These past few months have seemed extremely busy and I still seem to have so much more to do before I go back to school next week.

I would like to say that this year was filled with accomplishments...I wrote 50,000 words in a month. I excelled in all of my classes. I agreed to marry the man of my dreams. And it has been a good year. But there are things that I would have liked to go further with. I need to finish my novel. I did not complete my goal of reading 40 books this year. I wrote far less poetry than I would have liked to and was not consistent with writing in my journal or posting on my blog.

Still, I'm happy with 2013. I'm very happy with 2013.
And my little failures only make me more motivated for next year.


Oh! Also, my friend Dylan published an ebook on Amazon called Disenchanted: A Story of Love Lost. It's pretty short and pretty inexpensive, so if you're interested, you can find it here.

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

a letter to the man who asked me to marry him.

To Deacon,

Last night, you asked me to be your wife.
And I said, "Yes!" wholeheartedly. =)

We've been planning our upcoming marriage for quite some time and you have been planning to propose on Christmas Eve for at least a year now. I had a feeling that it was coming, but it was still magical. I drove you home after you helped me wrap my presents last night, then you took me inside, lit up the Christmas tree, and knelt down next to it, just you and me.

I will never forget it.

We sat down and enjoyed the moment together, alone in the middle of the night, for awhile before telling anyone. We prayed together and hugged and whispered and just took in the moment.

I want you to know how unbelievably blessed I am to have you in my life and to be able to spend the rest of my life with you. Our love story is beautiful, but we've been through a lot to get to where we are now. And you were there for me through all of it. I love you so much and I cannot wait to see what the future holds for us.

I get to marry my best friend. I get to see our love blossom and grow throughout the years.

You make me so incredibly happy, sir. I'm so excited for our marriage!

Love you,

(all photos were taken by my sister Karlee the day before the proposal)

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

to keep.


the woods are lovely, dark and deep.
but I have promises to keep,
and miles to go before I sleep.
and miles to go before I sleep.

- Robert Frost

currently listening to: Buzzcut Season by Lorde

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Chasing After Comets

I know words. We're on a first-name basis.
We've whispered secrets back and forth,
we've passed notes and secret glances--
we've said more than could be said;
we've learned how to understand each other,
even without each other.

I've learned which words to let fly,
and which to coddle between my palms.
I know which ones are sacred, which ones
to wait for--the ones that don't come around
a second time. They're flickering flames--
they're chasing after comets.

I caught a few tonight, like fireflies in a net.
They flew from you; I'm not sure you noticed,
but I did. I had not expected it then--
so sharp and precise. So matter-of-fact.
It was instantaneous, but I snatched it up--
that one word, that one little word:


currently listening to: Poison & Wine by The Civil Wars

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Pinterest Misquotes

I've been on Pinterest for a little over a year now, and I have to admit that I love it. Maybe a little too much.
But the one thing that I don't love about it is the constant misquoting that I see. Over and over again I see quotes and phrases taken by little-known authors, adapted into some sort of image, and tagged with an author that is more popular. It's maddening. Can you imagine being one of those authors who has put time and effort into their work only to have it attributed to somebody else?

That's why I put together a little list of some common misquotes that I see.


1) This is one I saw today. When I could not remember this line in any of the movies featuring the Joker, I went to Google. I actually had a hard time finding the real source--the most frequent answer I saw was author Sam Steven, but I'm not 100% sure that is accurate. Regardless, the Joker did not say this.
The Joker "We stop looking for monsters under the bed when we realize they're inside of us."

2) Alan Rickman never said this. It was originally said by a fan of the books and structured as a homage to the famous scene with Snape and Dumbledore.

3) This is not an Edgar Allan Poe quote. They are actually song lyrics from a song called "Terrible Heart" by a band called Poe.
edgar allan poe quotes - Google Search

4) This is not in the book or any of the Peter Pan movies. It is from the movie Hook. And even there, Peter Pan does not say it--Tinkerbell does.
Peter Pan Love Quote Poster by motormouthstudios on Etsy, $15.00

5) This quote is not in the book, but was added to the script for the movie.

6) You see this quote everywhere and attributed to every famous woman under the sun. Its true author is Pulitzer prize-winning scholar Laurel Thatcher Ulrich in an essay entitled, “Vertuous Women Found: New England Ministerial Literature, 1668-1735.″

Most of the misquotes I see come from Albert Einstein, Audrey Hepburn, and William Shakespeare. I just ask for all of you to keep an eye out and to stop pinning quotes blindly. All it takes is a little research!

Also, if there are any that you guys know of that were not listed, please share!

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Cats + Currently


listening to
            Let It Snow Baby…Let it Reindeer by Relient K. Specifically, “12 Days of Christmas.” It marks my first day of listening to Christmas music this season. I don’t have a preference of when the right time to start is—I just start whenever I am ready. And today it finally started snowing outside and I knew the time was right.

            Season 5 of The Office and Book 2 of Avatar: The Last Airbender. Very different shows, but both equally great. I’m actually trying to stay away from them today, because finals are coming up and I have a lot of things to accomplish this weekend. And they are terrific at providing distractions.   

            I have actually put my reading on hold for the moment, though I hope to be able to pick it up again over Christmas Break. I was pretty sad that I didn’t get to read anything over Thanksgiving Break—it has become one of my favorite traditions to finish reading a good book during that time. I did recently finish King Lear for one my classes, though. And I’m planning on reading a chapter of my Christian Doctrine textbook later on tonight to prepare for the upcoming final exam.

            My computer, which has been working double-time this weekend and is a bit hotter than it probably should be.

            A little weary. The semester is coming to a close and while that is relieving, it also means that I am halfway through my senior year of college and am just one step closer to being out in the world, trying to find my way.

            This weekend, I have been trying to complete the application process for graduate school and it is not going as smoothly as I had hoped. I fear that I put it off for too long and now I am stressed about getting it all done before the holidays. I’m also working on getting photos done before next week that I took over Thanksgiving, as well as studying for all of my final exams.

            That I could be home with my family and with Deacon, playing in all the snow that they keep sending me pictures of, reading Sylvia Plath and drinking hot chocolate by the fireplace, snuggled under fuzzy blankets and playing with Romeo and all the cats. I’m ready to be back home. I’m also ready to take my job back at Little Caesars over the break—as an introvert, I enjoy time alone, but I have had far too much of it this semester. I’m craving to get out and do something with my hands. To feel useful. To talk to other people face-to-face.

            This year has been academically successful, and I am truly thankful for that. I only have one more semester before I earn my B.A., though I have to take more credit hours than I ever have before and I’m a little nervous about it. But God has blessed me with truly wonderful peers and teachers that I know will help me along the way.
I’m also thankful for…
--my family for remodeling my room back home in time for my return for the holidays
--Deacon, for putting up with me during my good days and my bad days
--the staff at HLGU, for demonstrating such admirable qualities and always being able to help students
--today’s snow, for filling me with the Christmas spirit

And our cats, for being so photogenic when I was home for Thanksgiving:



Thursday, December 5, 2013


I caught that quiver and your eye's hopscotch;
your nose pressed to the earth like a bloodhound
chasing after the convict.
You judged me in less than a second. I saw it.
I saw the thought projected and processed
and stored within your mind's archives,
tucked away for future reference
or ransom.

These roads are too dark for me to drive
and you've told that story to me before.
I've heard those verses a thousand times,
and I don't care to remember them.

I've realized that we want to stand out and blend in
when convenient for us,
but the timing is never quite right.
Someone is always left empty-handed,
walking the aisles of mixed or missed items,
drawing circles in the margins of masterpieces.


Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Karlee // Portraits

My sister is beautiful. Just thought everyone should know.

We took these photos while waiting for everyone to arrive for Thanksgiving.



Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Ryan & Joe // Couple Portraits

Ryan and Joe are part of my family. They're like my adopted brothers.

Back in October, they asked me to take a few photos of them, and it was really a great time. =) I would have gotten them up sooner, but NaNoWriMo pretty much sucked all my free time last month. But better late than never, right?

I hope you all like them.


currently listening to: 9 Crimes by Damien Rice